Lately
So how you doin’?
Things got bad around here, hence the overwhelming silence, but Matty, sweet Matty, had the decency to get an ear infection so I’d have something other than my sadness to focus on. He’s not doing well, and is unbelievably miserable, so we are heading to the vet this afternoon after the usual home remedies failed. I’m not happy that he’s doing poorly, but it’s nice to have him to take care of and fuss over.
Work is going well, too. People are emailing me consistently, and it seems I am falling into a career as an elopement photographer (it might just be the season, too.) As much as part of me wants to shriek to potential clients, “Why are you getting married that’s so stupid?!”, I don’t actually feel that way, and they bring me joy. And hope. I still believe in love, and marriage, and I still love taking photos of it, too.
For this I am grateful.
Kizz
23 May 12 at 3:11 pm
Sometimes we need things that help us face away from ourselves. Glad you’ve got the good dogs and great work. xo
Jennifer Kley
24 May 12 at 3:35 pm
Ah, but being that up close and personal to fresh, new, dopamine filled love could keep the fire burning in your heart. And keep you from being marriage-lorn. Totally reconstructed the use of lorn.
Laura S.
25 May 12 at 11:27 am
Super true, dude, it can be hard not to project your experiences onto others. One of my favorite lines of poetry is “People are compelled to be together, good and bad.” I like that it’s not a judgment call, just a statement, a pretty balanced one at that. It’s probably a great thing, in the long run, to be exposed to show much joy through your work. Just don’t become a divorce photographer =)
Mary Leavines
25 May 12 at 8:56 pm
I can’t imagine what you’re going through, but wish you the best.
But even though it’s difficult to not project your sadness and disappointment about your ordeal (as Laura mentioned), the very fact that people are still making that commitment means that love is very much alive and out there. And if it’s there for them, it’s certainly there for you. Just from reading your blog I can tell you’re a very nice, unique and wonderful person. When you’re ready for it, you’re going to find a guy who loves you for you. What’s not to love? ;P
Good luck girly!
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