Happy New Year!

I’m really excited for 2013, not only because I’m set to leave 2012 behind me, but because I will turn 31. A study came out a few years ago saying that 31 is the year women are the most beautiful. That might be a total load but I’ll take it; I’ve honestly never felt more confident, unapologetic about who I am or, frankly, hot.

1. Organize Everything

It’s the year all the little pieces are getting glued together. For a lot of the past year I’ve survived and functioned on a base level in the cracks of my own life, and that was fine. It was where I was. This year I’m setting up systems for doing business more efficiently so it can grow more than ever, getting rid of clutter, and finally taking care of all those things I keep meaning to do. There are lists.

1. Get Hawt

I’m going to re-start loosing weight again. When everything started going sideways this year I was down about 37 pounds from my heaviest. I gave myself a break from the constant mental process of loosing weight ONLY with the promises that I would not GAIN weight, and that I would return to it when things were settled. It worked – I stayed within five pounds for eight months, and got really comfortable in my skin, but now it’s time to loose, oh, I don’t know? Another thirty pounds? About that. And the cool thing is, I already have the skills to do it. (Basically, I would like to look like Laura Catterall. Those hips! Juicy!) I was so excited about this that I jump started my efforts right after Christmas and already feel amazing.

3. Get Sane

I’m going to therapy. People don’t generally talk about this, but you know how I feel about putting on brave faces: Fuck that; let’s get real. And my reality is that shit is hard. As a teenager there was an assumption on my part, and those around me, that I’d be a certain kind of adult with a certain kind of life that is is so vastly different from my current reality it often feels like I’m living someone else’s life. On top of everything else, it’s too much to navigate on my own, so I’m getting help.

4. Get Healthy

Like I mentioned before, this is the year to pull all my health issues together, too. I haven’t had insurance in years, and have NO IDEA how to acquire it as a small business owner who mostly lives in one state (I have a month-to-month lease, making my Brooklyn apartment an unsuitable permanent address) while maintaining a legal residency in another. How do normal people do this? It’s a question that weighs heavily on me every day, and it’s time to stop ignoring it. Actually, if you have any resources or help for me, you can leave a comment or email me theAmberShow at gmail dot com. I’d really appreciate it.

And with everything else, I shall keep on keeping on: parties, trips, creative growth, dating, brunches, friends, yoga, Life Listing, and wringing all the good stuff I can out of New York City.

Thank you for the comments and emails throughout 2012. Your words of encouragement, support and love while I slogged through the most difficult year of my life have meant so much to me, and I could not have survived this divorce as gracefully without your support (that’s final, by the way, as of a few weeks ago.)

Cheers to 2013!