I remember this feeling; it’s obsessive and nervous, frustrating and really annoying. I’ve taken for granted that I don’t have to deal with it anymore, it’s been nearly forgotten, and now it’s back. It’s different because everything is so different than it used to be, but it’s there. It’s not jealously, but it’s kind of close. I miss Rob. Here I am in my grandma’s couch in Connecticut and he’s not online and I don’t know where he is and I miss him and I can’t do anything about it and I’m frustrated. I can call, I guess, but that might spoil everything. I kind of like missing him.

OMG HE IMed ME! GTG!

Yesterday we went to Connecticut to continue dealing with the basement of my grandma’s house. The second it was legally ours we emptied our storage space and deposited half our earthly possessions down there. A lot of my things were already there from when I lived with her before, from ’02 to ’04, and now it’s all a mix of stuff that we don’t really need but can’t quite throw away. What’s the word for that? There has to be one.

Junk, probably.

We took the dogs with us. Every time we go they are absolutely thrilled with the huge grassy backyard full of new smells to roll in. We found a partially deflated ball in the woods, probably from a neighbor, and Tino played with that. Grandma found Matty an old tennis ball in the garage and threw it for him.

The cool thing about my dogs is that they know better than to poop on the nice grass. They all politely trotted to the wooded area to hide themselves, and pooped in the piles of decaying leaves. They don’t know not to roll in animal pee, though.

Needless to say we didn’t get as much work done as we could have, but that was fine. It’s been ages since I “went out to play”, and it seemed much more important to goof off in the fresh air.

Rob found the handle of a paint roller in the garage, and we played a round of stickball. Matty was both infield and outfield, trying to get his tennis ball back. We tried to make Leeloo and Tino in on the game, too, but they just blinked at us when we called them, and then went back to zoning out in the sunshine.

It was a really good day.